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Medication can be a bumpy ride, but you can get through.

Let’s talk Medication Side Effects, I am on day 3 of a New Antidepressant, Vortioxetine also called Brintellix. They are tablets, that come in 5, 10,15 or 20 milligrams.

Personally, I am on 10mg daily and the main side effect that I am struggling with currently is nausea, for the first 2 days the nausea was really bad and I was physically sick, which makes you think, what’s the point in taking a medication that probably isn’t staying in your system anyway.

I woke up this morning and decided, third day lucky, I would give things another go.

I count today as a success, there’s been no vomiting, just nausea and a headache.

The best ways that I have found to combat the nausea are:

  • Take slow sips of drinks, like water or dilute orange etc
  • You can drink fizzy drinks slowly if they are ice cold (it’s strange)
  • Deep Breathing helps as does distraction!
  • Avoid Heavy, fried or greasy foods (trust me on this, keep things light)

Other than paracetamol and fresh air, I haven’t found any other ways to deal with the headaches.

I’ve also been having hot flushes and slightly fast pulse when I move around too quickly – but that’s been pretty easy to deal with, just don’t move too fast and make sure to keep cool.

Hopefully, the side effects only last a week, if not I’ll contact my doctor to see what they suggest.

If you are concerned by any side effects you may be having from Medication, contact your doctor or go to a hospital in an emergency and always read the safety leaflet that comes with your medication before taking it.

Wishing you a good week, I’m off to spend mine in Donegal, relaxing and spending time with nature, if you have any questions or just want to chat, you can email me at or Follow me on Twitter @ESamantha95

Erin x

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New Medication

Started taking my new medication yesterday, safe to say that I’ll be taking it at night time from now on.

For such a small pill, it didn’t half knock me on my ass, I have never felt dizziness and the need to sleep more in my life.

I’m finding it hard to focus today – Physically, not Mentally.

My eyes just feel heavy and it’s kind of hard to read as it feels like the words are moving. Maybe I just need to go back to bed even though I got a good 6 hours of sleep.

I went into a book/stationary store this morning, which I really shouldn’t do. I always end up buying something that realistically, I don’t need and can’t afford to be buying right now anyway.

3 Books, a Pen, 2 Bracelets and a Hand-Crank Fan later and I am £10 poorer than I was this morning. To top it off, I can’t even focus to read the first of the books anyway.

I am not even sure what the books are about to be honest, they are packaged in such a way, that I can’t read the blurb on the backs, so other than the name of the author and the title of the book itself, the theme of the book shall remain a surprise.

Wishing you a pleasant day,

Erin x

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life update – Hoping this is just a blip

I’m so sorry that I’ve been neglecting my blog right now, for the last 3 weeks my mood has been pretty good, I uploaded some videos to youtube and have been getting on well with my CBT appointments.

I am happy to say that I have started exercising more and am trying to lose some weight and get healthier, in the hopes that, that will help improve my mental health.

Today I woke up feeling sad and emotional for no apparent reason and my mood has dipped, which I’m thinking is just a blip, nothing has changed in the last 3 weeks to cause my dip in mood (well other than I’ve been reducing medication, so that I can start a new one).

Taking life one day at a time

Erin x

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Officially 24!

Another year older, My original Plan for my Birthday was to go see a movie and go for a meal, but by Friday I wasn’t exactly in the mood to follow a plan.

I went out with my best friend, we skipped the movie and the meal and just went to 3 different pubs instead – We did order Dominos Pizza at 3 am though, so we still had some food.

I didn’t get so drunk that I forgot the whole night, just bits of it – but the bits I do remember were pretty f*ucking good.

I also took the leap and uploaded my first youtube video, it’s shit and I know it’s shit, but I’m working on being better – any constructive criticism is welcome.

You can watch it here

Erin x

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How exactly do I forgive myself?

So I had my 5th session of CBT on Monday (1st July) . In 5 sessions I’ve learned that I don’t like experiencing negative emotion and that I need to find positive ways to express my emotions – so I haven’t learnt anything I didn’t already know. The realisation I did come to is that I need to learn how to forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made in the past, in order to move forward.

I’ve been carrying around a lot of shame, anger and guilt for years, over situations that I can’t change, feeling like I’m not normal or not good enough because I’m not like everyone else.

It’s time I start learning how to deal with guilt and shame and learn to forgive myself to be able to move forward with my life. I need to learn to love myself for who I am today, not grieve for the person I wish I had been. (I get the feeling that it’s not going to be easy).

I’m on day 10 of the reduced dose of medication and I honestly don’t know if my mood would of naturally dipped at this time or if it’s caused by the reduced dose of medication. My Birthday is in two days and I had plans to go out, to have fun and right now I’d much rather stay in and watch a movie and have a few drinks in the house with my best friend.

Erin x